Simply Beautiful Life

Can you love others like how they do? ♥

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 16:47:00 +1100

Can you love others like how they do? ♥

Surprise and Delight

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 16:18:00 +1100

It was 2pm ish this afternoon when I was queuing for a cup of my favourite hot chocolate at a cafe 2 blocks away from my house. It was just a small cafe run by a lovely old couple. The husband was the barista and the wife helped him taking the orders and doing the transaction. Indeed, their warmth service to their customers is the reason why I keep coming back to them.

Not that long queue actually, only about 2 more people to go before my turn, which was a middle-aged lady with a quite messy hair’s turn right now. I believe she was so tired and restless. It’s all shown under her eyes, yeah, a very thick black eye bags under both eyes.

“Hello, good afternoon! What can I get you for today?”, the cashier (which was also the wife) asked. “I just need a tall latte with extra shot on it, please”, she answered. “Order noted. And that’s gonna be $5.40 all together”. She grabbed her bag and started looking for her wallet. A minute later, and she was still stirring up everything inside her green bag. “Oh, great! Where is it??”, she softly mumbled.

After another minute, she finally raised her head, “Sorry, I guess I need to cancel it. I was in a hurry and didn’t realize leaving my wallet at home”. She sounded more frustated then ever. I could tell she was just having a very bad day.

“A tall latte with extra shot for the lady in yellow shirt”, the barista (and the husband as well) shouted from the coffee kitchen. “Oh no no no, sorry I just cancelled my order. Sorry for the late cancellation”, she said recitently.

“That’s okay. We just want to give you a small gift. We guess you just had a tough morning, didn’t you? We hope this tall cup of latte with extra shot can help to brighten up the rest of your day”, the wife said.

and there it was finally, the BIG smile on that middle-aged lady’s face..

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Dear fellas,

How many gloomy faces you noticed around you today?
Have you found any? 1? 2?
or you don’t even notice there was few of those?

Often, remembering how many assignments from school or worrying about the thinning wallet are taking the whole room of our brain.
Sometimes we don’t even remember to ring back mother when we promised her to call back after meeting.
We just simply forget how it feels to share a little care for everyone around us.

Hey hey, I tell you what,
It is Valentine day..
The day of love. The day of sharing. The day of care.
So start looking at your left, at your right, at your back, at your front, at your every single angle and star S M I L I N G!
You’ll never know how a simple smile could make someone’s day, friends!
But more importanly, you’ll never know how incredible it is to see them smiling back at you :)

And when this day is over?
What day over? Hey, when February 14th finished in Australia, Americans have just started their loving day, guys!
So continue caring to one another.

And when America’s 14th of February has ended?
Aren’t you get used to be happy seeing people smiling back at you by that time?
So, why stopping?

Doesn’t it feel joyful to hear someone thanking you for being friendly?
And doesn’t it feel blissful to turn someone’s frowny face into a cheerful laughter?
Yes yes yesss, there is surely NO REASON to stop loving others.

Cos every single day is Valentine day.
Endless days of love..

‘I slept and dreamt that life was joy. I awoke and saw that life was service. I acted and behold, service was joy’ - Rabidranath Tagore

- Happy Valentine Day ♥ -

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Fri, 25 Jan 2013 00:00:54 +1100

Two Different Views

Thu, 24 Jan 2013 23:47:00 +1100

One question. Two different people. and two different perspective.

“What do you think love is?”

My 14 years old sister

H (Her): Like seriously you’re asking this question to me? Come on, sis, you’re much older than I am. You should have known what it is!
M (Me): Why not? I’m just trying to find out what love really is. Is it that hard for you to answer ey?
H : Geez, you’re useless! I guess love is just love, when you can’t stop thinking of someone you really adore. Someone who brings you smile even when he doesn’t do anything. Love is when you feel something different when you meet his eyes. People called it chemistry. Dude! everyone knows it. Where have you been all these time huh? Silly!
M : And how can you find that chemistry?
H : Of course it depends on how you see your prince! For me, I always have spark when I see Aaron, the captain of my school’s basketball team. He’s tall, he’s cute, he’s smart, He’s athletic, he’s every girl’s fantasy! You should see him doing his usual slam dunk. SOOO FREAKIN’ cool! Then you know what I’m talking about!
M : Soo, spark is the same thing with chemistry?
H : Well, it started with sparks and the chemistry grows. Okay, so chemistry is a feeling when you meet the man of your dream. And if you can’t stop thinking about him and you always try to find a way to get closer to him each day, then that when you’re in LOVE. Easy!

My 36 years sister.

H (Her) : Hmmm, let me think the best way to explain you. Loveee…
(silence..)
(still in silence..)
(so was it in the next 5 mins..) Okayyyyy..lemme just ask her questions to help her answering
M : Is he someone you’re been dreaming for so long? The type of guy you like?
H : If you want a real answer, HE IS NOT! Haha. Hey, dun tell Shane or I will kill you definitely!
M : Well, depend on the reason why.. Shane is my best brother-in-law so far!! I just can’t pretend I know nothing in front of the people I love! Ohhh, and it depends on what dinner you’ll buy me too later. Hahaha!
H : You!! (tickling me hard)
M : Okay okay, white flaggg. Oh sis, I didn’t know you’re that wild! Hahaha. Now, back to the topic.
H : What? (thinking) Ohhhh.. yeah, love. Do you still remember Stanley?
M : Your ex?
H : He’s just the typical man I would date. He’s taller than me, handsome, is the best student in uni. He’s caring, he is romantic. Plus he never cheated on me!
M : Then why did you guys break up?
H : Because of jealousy. He’s too overprotective to me. Never lets me hanging out with my boy friends, even when there were many of us. I could stand it at the beginning, but that’s too much. I’ve understood him for too long and I was just too tired in the end. I guess as much as I love how I finally ended up with someone I did adore for so long, I just cudn’t accept how he treated me either. No trust. No space for myself. No reciprocity.

Shane is different. He might not the man I always dream. He’s shorter than me, very chubby, he doesn’t know branded stuff and never really concerns about what he is wearing. As long as he feels comfortable, that’s it. Seriously, never in my life I could imagine to spend all these years marrying him. But I never regret every single second I’ve spent with him. He just knew how to make me smile. He always listens to my stories and never complaints if I repeat them for hundred times. He cheers me up when I’m down. He knows how to calm me when my temparature is rising. And the important thing is I know he’s way too workaholic. He might loves his job more than me. But surprisingly, I can still be fine with it.

I guess that’s love. When you can tolerate his worst habbit and still want to spend your days with him..

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So, hands up if you still think love is a simple thing to explain.
Well, I still do :).

To tell you the truth, I used to see love as an incredible FEELING with sparks even when I couldn’t meet someone I adore in person. Just like my younger sister does.
I concern about the height, the look, the face, the body.
I know, the sec my heart races just to think of someone and cudn’t really get calm down seeing him talking to the other girls, I’m in love.

But as time goes by, just like what my older sister explained, loving someone is not just about the feeling. Is not about the sparks, the chemistry.

Love is a DECISION.

Whether he’s always late to the dates,
Whether he never really is on a diet though you keep asking him to do so,
Whether he keeps forgeting your wedding anniversary,
or even whether he can’t really tell a funny joke.

But you still want to be with him. You still DECIDE to be in LOVE with him. Just because you know you’re happy when you’re with him even when he is annoying :)

The 13th Birthday Greeting

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 00:22:00 +1100

Technically,
This is my 13th birthday greeting for you.
That’s if I gave you one each year ever since I knew you.
Or let’s say, ever since we started to talk and have fun :).

Unfortunately,
There were couple of years when we didn’t even remember who we used to be,
F R I E N D S.
Yes, totally two little strangers in two different schools.

Funny,
How we finally recalled back how we laughed so HARD again in senior high school.
When we were finally became schoolmates again :).

And that’s the time I learnt the word “F U N”.
Lucky we listen to the same music, so that we could really sing those songs we like loudly every time we do karaoke.
Lucky we taste quite the same food, so that I could really eat the dishes you recommend me to eat.
Lucky we see the same film, so that I knew who I could ask to watch those drama comedy movies together when I feel bored.
But from all of those, lucky we feel the same thing through every single thing we’ve been through together. L U C K Y, to have each other. Well, at least I do, do you? :D.

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Dear Bestie,

Happy 24th birthday!
You’re not that little girl with the same uniform I was wearing anymore.
Soon, you’ll be wearing that white doctor coat with stethoscope hung around your neck.
You know how great you will be REAL soon, rite? :)
Wiser. More mature. Totally grown up!

But please don’t change in the inside.
Being someone who has a BIG heart and care enough to help others who need her help.
Someone who knows to where all the problems are solved, HIM.
Someone who keeps smiling even in her hardest time. Someone strong.
Being y o u r s e l f.

Surely there’s still a very long path for you to go through.
And sure life is not as easy as how it used to be. You know it.
But keep in mind, when world insanely tries to make you cry, show them thousand reasons for you to keep smiling.
Dun worry, I’m here for you if you ever need someone to listen to you, to cheer you, or even to argue with you ;).

So, once again, Happy Birthday.
I wish you joy. I wish you luck. I wish you success. I wish you good health. I wish you happiness. I wish you all the very best to happen in your life.

Really, I couldn’t get enough to thank Him for letting me knowing someone like you :).
- Best friend for life -

*dedicated for someone*

My Birthday Gift for You

Wed, 26 Dec 2012 02:28:00 +1100

Dear Jesus,

Happy Birthday!
Is there anything You want from me, God?

If LOVING You is all You ask, You know I am.
Eventhough I know loving You is not as easy as saying it.
But You know I’ll fight for You.

I might not have a beautiful shiny heart like You do.
Mine is full of scratches and scars all over it.
But I always have space deep down for You to stay.

I might not have the sweetest smile liek You do,
even when I made you dissapointed over and over again.
But for You, I will try the best I can to keep smiling,
even in my hardest time.

I might not as strong as You are.
Sometimes I can’t help for holding my tears to fall any longer in the middle of my sorrow.
And sometimes I’m drawn too long among my problems and refuse to stand back when I fall.
But for You, I will always pray for faith and strength.
I’ll fight for survival within You.

Dearest Jesus,

I might have nothing to give for Your birthday present.
But search deep inside me,
and You’ll find a pure heart to love You.

Once again, happy birthday, Lord :).

Love,

The found sheep.

Unclear Measurement

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 08:37:33 +1100

Does anyone know how many minutes it is in an hour? Correct! 60 minutes.
Does anyone know how deep Pacific ocean is? Yes Yes! about 12999 meters deep.
Hmm, next, does anyone know how long the great wall of china is? Wooo, you’re smart! It’s 8,850 km long.
Now, does anyone know how many days left to be with the one we love?
No? Anyone?

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It’s Friday.
The day everyone’s looking for.
The end of working hours within a week, the momen where FUN begin.

I supposed to be putting on my make up, wearing my new satin dress paired with those white leather high heels and get ready for my 3th anniversary with him.

But I didn’t..

I can’t believe things change in just a blink of eyes.
He was here with me yesterday. Sitting in the same couch and watching his favourite movie show.
I still remember how annoying he was for keep asking me to get him lots of stuffs the whole show.
His iphone. His wallet. Coke. Chips. The remote. and nearly in every 20 minutes he wanted another glass of water.
Geez! How many litres had he drank for just a couple of hour??

Yes, pretty irritating indeed!
I couldn’t even get the story line of the movie. Thanks to you, boyfriend!
In the end of the movie, he finally realized how awful the face I made.
He asked me why and I said “I’m okay.” (just like every other girl usually answers).
He stared at my eyes and started throwing jokes.
One joke I acted cool. Like nothing could ever bring my mood back.
Two jokes my mouth started shaking, but I managed to hold my giggle.
On the third times, he added a little stupid face and ridiculous noise.
Oh MY! Who could ever control not to laugh for that expression huh?!
So I laughed loudly and forgot that I supposed to be mad at him.

He smiled and kissed my forehead.
“I’m sorry for paying more attention to the movie. I’m sorry for keep asking you this and that the whole movie. I’m sorry for dissappering that lovely smile in your face.”
And he cuddled me.
I didn’t know when, but by the time I heard those sentence, my lips already smiling.
“Thank you for bringing back my smile, hun. This is why I love you.”

It’s 6.30 in the evening now.
I am expecting a black metalic civic has stopped by in front of my house.
I am hoping someone with his silver watch getting out of the car and picking me up for the anniversary dinner he has set up since few weeks ago.
But here I am all by my self..
Sitting at the side he was sitting yesterday, crying over his unpredictable loss..

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Dear fellas,

Sure, so many things around you that you can easily measure.
The tall of your wardrobe, the amount of shoes you have, the weight of your dog, the length of your house.
But could you even guess how many days left for you being together with the one you love?
I couldn’t. They couldn’t. You COULD N O T.

Think.
Have you forgived them for what they’ve done that dissapointed you?
Have you thanked them for their kindness, their sweetness, their love?
Have you taken a really good care of them?
Have you cheered them up and hug them whenever they need shoulders to lean on?
Have you apologized for your fault, your stupid crankiness, your selfishness?
Have you told them how much they mean for you?
How much you love them?

Have you made the best out of time while you are with them?

Cos life is not as long as you think you have.
And we’ll never know what’s next tomorrow.
So, please, DO while you still can.

“In the end it’s not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away” - Shing Xiong

*Just a made up story for relfection :)*

If You Ever Get Lonely

Fri, 19 Oct 2012 21:50:00 +1100

I know you’ll be having a new life soon
When there are plenty of new faces and new voices around you
And you’ll be tasting lots of new flavour in your dishes
That sometimes you love, sometimes you don’t

Obviously new people come into your life
And you’ll make lotsa new friends in just a blink of eyes
Eventho you might struggle in maintaining the friendship cycle

Surely I believe you will be just alright ..

But if one day you ever get lonely
and you start missing old times ..

Just remember our last trip to that boring place
Where there were not many entertaining spots to visit and the food didn’t taste as great as our city’s.
Well, except for the dumpling :).
The only restaurant that kept us addicted to come back over and over again.
But could you believe how BIG our laugh really was in each second 3 days in a row?

Remember how annoying I was to leave you asleep in the middle of your favourite movie
Not just once, but guess more than 5 times I kept doing the same thing
Hey, but also don’t forget how irritating you were for keeping me hungry the whole afternoon trying my best waking you up!
Why were you that lazy huh?
But could you believe thru all this time we are still meeting each other?
Still calling each other b e s t f r i e n d?

Hey bestie,
Dun you ever worry about the whole new things around you ahead,
Cos I know you will completely be fine
Yes, you know you will ..

But if one day you have noone to listen to your story to share your burden to cheer you when you have a rough day
If one day you’re looking for someone to sing along with you to laugh on your jokes to tell you the truth
And you’re missing someone to fight to debate to argue with you
You know where to find the one
She’s just right h e r e :)

Spice up a lil of the original :D

Fri, 19 Oct 2012 18:07:00 +1100

Spice up a lil of the original :D

Step to Simplicity

Mon, 08 Oct 2012 15:15:00 +1100

“Whatever happened, you know how special you are to me”

And that’s the last time my aunt saw her beloved someone right before the special day of him finally became a husband of her best friend.

I wonder if today was a good timing to listen to this sad love story of her in this beautiful Saturday. But oh well, does teach me a lesson for sure :D

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It was nearly 30 years ago since the first time my aunty met the most annoying boy ever in her uni. A type of creature that she would never ever even try to get close with.

Funny how everything turned out just like the other love story. Through all those stupid fights and yelling, without even telling what they feel for each other, they already knew love had stopped by between them. And through all those tears, hugs and kisses were always healing the pain.

Everything went just fine till the day he had to go thousand miles away from her. Sad how finally they knew what they were in the end, just ‘friends’ (with feeling). He said there were no such thing as relationship in distance. Things would be just so hard for her to find how sad she would be when she needed him to be next to her and nothing she could do.

True, when it came to distance and time difference, the word “patient” and “understanding” seems slowly fading away. Was just too tiring to fight over the same reason, c o m u n i c a t i o n. And that’s how two ‘friends’ started becaming strangers.

Nearly 2 years since the last fight. Aunty just could not believe how real he was, standing in front of her again. It’s just amazing how the feeling didn’t change a bit from the way it used to be. The title was “Best Friend”, but they knew deep down their heart, there’s something more than that.

Just an unexpected day, she found out that her close friend has feeling for him. And on each denial, he said he didn’t have feeling for aunty’s close friend when he knew he did. In the end, he admitted how frustating it was to choose between two amazing women.

Everything seemed so complicated and confusing. Ego was everywhere. And nothing went just right. Aunty was the one who knew him longer. She was the one who more understood his most annoying side and still accepted him as how he was. And more importantly, she just knew how to bring a lil smile in his depressing days. Just too UNFAIR to whom she need to compete. Someone who knew him much lesser than she did. Someone who she called a Best Friend.

For almost half a year, the battle was still on. Aunty was clearly not someone who surrendered that easily. She knew what she’s doing and how to win what she wanted. It just didn’t work when it came to irrational thing named feeling. The situation didn’t change much. A boy with a puzzled feeling to decide which one he loved more. Just too HARD.

One afternoon, she was relaxing her mind by taking a short walk around the park in the corner of her house complex. It’s always refreshing to see green overloaded everywhere, plus it’s Saturday morning. Perfect time to release the stress. After a few minutes walking, she finally decided to step aside the bench behind the fish pond, while suddenly she saw her close friend talking to her mom, sitting right on the same bench she was intending to sit.

“I won’t that easily give up, mom! No matter what! It’s not about how long she knows him more than I do, not about how closer she is to him compared to me to him either. It’s just how I love his smile when I throw some jokes. And how glad I am that he trusts me to listen to his stories. Sometimes he told me about how stressing it was to be in the middle of two adorable women who are equally important to him. You have no idea how sad it is to see someone you love to put that gloomy face everytime he talked about that topic.”

“But mom…
Whatever happen ahead, even if he finally chooses her over me, nothing could change how much I adore her as my best friend.
I would still be happy for both of them…”

Tears falling from her eyes. She just realized how selfish she was for ignoring his feeling and persistently imposing on how to loose her own best friend.Was that how she described herself as a perfect lover and a best friend?

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“Sorry for making things harder for you all this time. I made it easy for you now. Surely I just want you to be mine as much as I did years ago. It never changes, even a tiny little bit. But clearly there is someone else who fight for you much more than I do. Someone who keeps struggling to win you and keep trying to beat how close we are. But also someone who still cares about my happiness. So, yes.. go for her .. “

“Whatever happened, you know how special you are to me”, what he finally said in the end after a long talk.

And that’s the last time aunty saw her beloved someone right before the special day of him finally became a husband of her best friend.

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Fellas,

Letting go someone we love is never an easy thing to do. Obviously, its harder than donating our favourite dress or giving our younger sister our only lunch meal. Is about letting go someone we care so much.

But how much you care about someone? How much more than you care about yourself? Have you listened to their stories, their opinion, their feeling? Have you given them time to think, time to decide?

Have you considered to letting them go for their happiness? Cos really, that is what c a r e is supposed to be :).

“The greatest step towards a life of simplicity is to learn to let go.” - Steve Maraboli

.The bonds of affection..F R I E N D S H I P.

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 18:44:00 +1000

.The bonds of affection.
.F R I E N D S H I P.

.Friend.

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 18:23:00 +1000

What is a good friend?

Someone who asks you to have lunch together at your favourite restaurant.
Someone who never forgets to greet you a happy bday right on your special day.
Someone who would love to entertain and cheer you whenever you feel gloomy.
Someone who always supports you in whatever you do, no matter what, even when the world does not.
Someone who brings the joy into your days ..

What is a best friend?

Someone who knows your favourite meal at your favourite restaurant and cook you one.
Someone who never fails to be the first one to greet you bday wishes.
Someone who listens to every single detail of your problems and cry with you in your saddest moment.
Someone who is not afraid to scold you when something is going wrong with you.
Someone who completely understands you in the inside ..

And what is true friend?

Someone who is willing to forgive those who don’t remember back what their favourite restaurant and their favourite meal.
Someone who is willing to forgive those who forget about their birthday and still becomes the first bday greeter.
Someone who is willing to forgive those who dun even have time to listen to their sadness and cheer them up.
Someone who is willing to forgive those who dun support what they do or what they think and completely understand that the scolds they get are just purely for the sake of their happiness.
Someone who has a genuine heart to forgive ..

Now, which one is you?
You might be a good friend. You might be a best friend.
But can you call yourself a T R U E Friend too?

Desire

Sat, 21 Jul 2012 05:38:00 +1000

It was just three days ago,

When my lil girl was nonstoply cryingSOOO HARD for a stick of lollipop.
Did really annoy me that time, indeed.
Sadly, she was heavily got her sore throat that I wouldn’t allow her getting, not even a tiny bite of the candy.

Fortunately, she suffered no more infection in her throat today.
And I decided to give her a reward for obeying what I asked her not to eat these days,a cute colorful lollipop :).
Surprisingly she gave it back to me.
“You could have it, mom. I’m not that interested anymore to eat this.”
and she continued eating a bar of her favourite chocolate.

Dear fellas,

Have you ever really wanted something for sooo long,
do whatever it takes to get what you want,
pray everyday for the things to be yours,
but you never had any chance to get it?

I DID.

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There was one boy I really liked back when I was in high school.
We were so close that everyone seems mistakenly thought we were together.
In fact, we weren’t.
I was just a young lil girl who were too afraid to tell him what I felt back then.
And I kept questioning what he felt for me.

Just before he went overseas, 10,158.53 miles far away from where I was standing that day, we fell into a deep conversation that night.
And for the very first time, I could finally clear out all the question marks in my mind.
Better, I felt relief for knowing how he actually felt for me, which was the thing I did really hope from him.

Somehow, we had never ended up as a couple after that night.
Two strong stubborn characteristics made us thinking thousand times to commit under one relationship.
And it took my entirefour years being on and off thinking about him before I completely moved on.
But oh well, I forgot how it felt to be that total screwed-up girl just because of thinking about him anyway.

Was the 8th years since I knew him, 4.5 years since the last time I met him, we reunited.
After years, he finally came back to the town.
A month hang around together with him reminded me how close we were back in high school. HOW MUCH I WANTED TO BE WITH HIM.

We watched movie together, we had lunch and dinner together almost everyday, and we talked literally about everything! EVERYTHING!
Couldn’t believe how much more fun we were that time than how we used to be.
Until one day, out of nowhere, and I didn’t know how,
we kissed.

Were my prayers to be with him finally answered?
I WAS AFRAID NOT!
It’s just funny how things were still not going like what I was expecting.
We kept joking and laughing loudly that day,
Before we had our regular fights and completely disappeared.

Now, it’s already 6 years since then.
We said hello and we asked how we had been doing when we were bumping into each other.
But our relationship is not going anywhere.
Or maybe, it’s already over ever since the day we revealed our true feelings

Am I curious about how could two individuals get so close but never end up together in the end?
MY WHOLE LIFE!
Do I ever wish that happened earlier, right when we were still in that blue and white uniform?
YES, YES I DO. SOMETHING MIGHT CHANGED.
And do I ever regret what happened to me?
NOT EVEN A SINGLE SECOND!

Cos ..
If that could never had happened to me, I wouldn’t know how wonderful it would be to have a very patient husband like mine now.
Someone who quietly sits down listening to my every single stories and with no complains always successfully calms me down whenever I had a bad day.

And let that fairytale just remains as an unforgettable beautiful memory of mine :)

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Fellas,

When you really really REALLY want something, but you never got it,
dun you ever feel gloomy.
Believe that you might don’t get a stick of lollipop today, but surely you will get your favourite chocolate bar one day.

Realize, sometimes what you want is not always what you get, but in the end, what you get is so much better than what you wanted.

A beautiful song for every beautiful individual of you. Have a...

Thu, 05 Jul 2012 01:07:44 +1000

A beautiful song for every beautiful individual of you. Have a beautiful day, everyone ♥

Happy Born Day

Sat, 23 Jun 2012 21:46:00 +1000

Did you remember how excited you were counting the days before your birthday when you were a kid?
When you were expecting the presents your dad will give you would be the thing you asked him long time before?
When you were impatiently waiting to be older to have more power with your new age?
When you kept guessing who would be the first one to greet you?
When everything seems so beautiful..

It’s almost one quarter century for me to live in this world.
Time flies so fast. REAL fast!
And I miss all those happy feeling when it came to my special day.

If seeing me to be a year older means seeing how unfair life is even more,
If being older means knowing more hurting secrets I couldn’t tell,
If being older means pretending to be strong in front of my sick brother to cheer him up,
If being older means spending time working the thing I don’t really feel like doing,
If being older means finding everything goes totally out of what I could ever imagined it should be,
Why would I be excited for that special day of mine?

They say life is short,
but why do I find it too long for me to stay?
And when they say life is like a book and you are the author,
why couldn’t I write down my own happy stories on its every single chapters?

Things changed.
So did I.
I don’t see that smiling face of mine anymore.
I find everything is just so negative around me.
I lost the faith in me.
And here I am, being a year older again today.

Oh well, happy birthday to my self..

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*dedicated to someone.*

Happy birthday! If ever I could wish you something for this special day of yours, “Don’t Quit!” is the only thing I could ever say to you.
Cos once you do this, all the other “Wish you all the best”, “Wish all the dreams come true”, and “Be happy from this year ahead” will follow :D

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DON’T QUIT

When things go wrong,
As they sometimes will.
When the road you’re trudging,
seems all uphill.
When the funds are low,
and the debts are high.
And you want to smile,
but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit..
Rest if you must,
BUT DON’T YOU QUIT

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar,
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit.
It’s when things go wrong
THAT YOU MUSTN’T QUIT

- by anonymous -

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So once again, Happy Born Day .. :)

A Glass of Hot Chocolate.

Sun, 06 May 2012 09:30:00 +1000

It’s raining (again). Like the other days lately.
And it’s so cold here in my room. But I know it’s even more freezing outside.
A glass of hot chocolate right next to my laptop has been a great sweet companion these days. Though it’s not enough to warm up my entire body.
So I decided to turn on the heater and went under my quilt.
Now, that’s what w a r m t h really is.

A beep from my online skype. Someone.
“You there?”
A sign where an urgency exist.
So without any longer thinking, I press the green call button and start listening to the story.

I heard frustration and I sensed sorrow.
Couldn’t explain how gloomy the one really was.
Silently, I listened to every single word the one said.
Bitter.
Not just because how hurting it was to listen to the one’s story.
But because I couldn’t do anything but listen.

I couldn’t hug. I couldn’t hold the hands. I couldn’t wipe the tears. Could not even simply sit listening right next to the one.
Pray was the only thing I could do at this moment.
And I know that’s not enough.
Definitely NOT ENOUGH.

Wondering what words could possibly calm the screaming heart.
I know there were few. But my lips might had chose to seal.
“Be strong” was the only sentence could come up from my mouth.

And the conversation fell into silensium ..

Dearest fellas,

Have you ever felt useless as someone’s someone?
When your heart definitely want to run and hug the one, but sadly you were thousand miles away from them?
All you can give them are just the two welcoming ears to listen to the story.
And the two hands that you really want to use to grab their hands and hold them tightly ensuring they are not alone, now are only sealed up as prayer hands.
When words are all locked up and brain seems helpless in thinking any calming sentences.

Just like a sweet hot chocolate in a freezing day.
That at one point will be run out.
No sweetening taste anymore.
Only bitter left.
.A non everlasting warmth.

“Wish I could be the quilt. That transfers the heating temperature the one under me. That covers the trembling body. That comforts the shivering heart..”

Simply Steady

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 01:50:00 +1100

Many people think to change in their life.
Of course in a better way.
Want to be prettier.
Want to be smarter.
Want to be stronger.
Want to be richer.
Want to be slimmer.
Want to be B E T T E R.

But how many of you, ever cross in your mind to remain constant?

To constantly become a hard worker.
When you put all your effort to do the work and get them done.
When you are focusing in every single tasks to do and finish them just in time.
When you spend couples of hours just to brainstorm the idea.

To constantly become a good person.
When you feel bad for a standing old people and give your seat to them.
When you forgive someone accidentally crash over you.
When you pray if there is one of your friend fell sick.

To constantly loving your someone.
When you keep telling them how much they worth for you. literally infinity.
When you crazily explore all the trending topics just to have a wide long conversation with them.
When you do anything just to win their heart.

To constantly trying your best to be a happy soul..

Dearest you, here are some questions for you to think.

Do you know how inspiring you were to seriously do the thing you do?
Have you counted how many people wish to work and reach the dream with you?
Do you realize how close you were to the succeed?

Don’t you know how shining you were once you have done a kind thing?
Do you realize how you made someone’s day by simply offer your seat to someone much older than you?
Have you ever thought how blessed they were to meet someone like you?

Have you ever felt tremendously being challenged to make someone you adore love you back?
Don’t you miss how it felt to hear your someone finally say “I love you” back once you did?
Do you know how beloved and special they used to feel?

Cause changing is essential.
But when reality meets the expectation, stability is the whole new concept.

“Now the whole point about machines is they are designed not to be random. When you call up a word processing program on your computer, you don’t want it to be different every time you call it up. You want it to stay the same.” - Rupert Sheldrake.

Shelter

Mon, 19 Mar 2012 00:00:00 +1100

It’s Wednesday morning. A normal Wednesday morning with the same route to the same destination I intended to everyday, o f f i c e. The only different was just the rain. Or maybe a HUGE different I could tell. It’s a heavy rain!

I should have listened to the weather reporter on the TV yesterday. *sigh*. And there I was, running through the rain as quick as possible to reach a place to hide from this pouring water.

Sitting at the back of the busy bakery shop, waiting for the rain to stop, I started listing how frightened I would be today. Preparing for the seminar, working till late, dealing with stubborn boss, and be ready to listen to his anger if there was something went differently from what he wanted. Same old day.

*sigh* If only I got a better job. If only my boss could ever listen to what I said. If only he understood how annoying it was to work overtime over and over again without any extra salary. If only all my idea was respected. If only I got a magic door just to escape from all these overwhelming routine task, even for just a day. If only it’s not raining!!

I turned around to a shop right besides the bakery shop in front of me. It’s a small pharmacy shop and they sold AN UMBRELLA! Geez.. how come I didn’t notice from the start??

The second I stepped out the path outside the building, I opened the umbrella and continuing walking to my office. Faster this time, since I knew I was gonna be late. Just didn’t wanna make it even later. I looked around me. It’s still raining. Worse. Heavier than before. But at least this time I didn’t need to worry from getting wet. Thank you to the umbrella in my hand!

And I suddenly realized..

This path I walked at was just like the life journey. Long and winding. Sometimes it’s raining, making the path even harder to walk at. Just like life, sometimes there wud be problem arise, making the journey even tougher to live in. And that would happen over and over again. No denial. No doubt.

But I got this umbrella right above my head that protected me from getting wet, even if the rain was pouring heavier than ever. Just like Him who watched over me right there. The one who always made me feel save and secure from every single problems in front of me, even if there would be a bigger problem ahead.

Once again, He calmed my heart down and growed my faith in Him. And I start smiling..AGAIN.

When you have a BIG problem, let it know you got a H U G E God with you to finish it.

Till the End ♥

Wed, 15 Feb 2012 02:06:22 +1100

Till the End ♥

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